Robyn’s 1st Birthday

Dear Robyn,

Happy 1st birthday in the clouds, our special boy, we miss you so much. The hurt never recedes or lessens, there is no consolation in time that enables your loss to be any less painful. 

It’s been an emotional day and we have tried to celebrate your short life and the time we had with you. I can’t believe it’s been a year since you left my body and that we’ve been seperated for this length of time. When you were born I desperately wanted you to take a breath, so that it would be all ok and I could take you home. I’m so sorry you didn’t get the life you deserved and that we will never get to know the little boy that you are. I wish I could make you a birthday cake and see you blow the candles out, open your presents and fall asleep in our arms after a busy birthday. 

I hope you can still do those things but in our hearts instead of our arms. Our love for you never plateaus, nor is there a limit. Our love for you grows everyday.

Happy birthday little man, we miss you and love you lots,

Love from mummy xxxx


9 weeks to go

Here we are at 31 weeks. I’m scratching my head wondering how on earth we got here. Sprout had a growth scan and is doing great. He is currently an oblique breech, he likes his awkward positions! 

Discussing birth options with the consultant yesterday made things very real for us. Deep breaths!