mummy and I miss you so much. No words reflect or explain it enough. We are both finding things tough at the moment, it feels like we have to make our entry into the world much quicker than we feel ready for. We need so much strength to do the basics. It’s so hard going out into the world, I see pregnant women, babies and little boys, I wonder if you would like trains and cars. Now that we are approaching your due date in the next few months it’s getting more and more painful. Three months on I still think you are coming home and this nightmare will be over. Missing you is such a physical pain for which there are no pain killers, no distractions and no words to make it better. Just a lot of tears and tummy ache.
I hope you like the love lock I put on the bridge at Bakewell for you, I kissed the keys and then threw them in the river. Hopefully a big fish won’t eat them! I saw some people read your lock and it made me a little happier to know you are out there and people know how special you are.
I hope you are playing and having fun in the garden when the sun shines. There are four yellow roses opening up on your plant, they are so bright. I wish I could sit in the garden with you and show them to you.
Sending you big cuddles and kisses. Miss you heaps and love you lots. You are my special boy always,